Abandonment: Don't Leave Me, Or I'll Leave First!

"If you run, I'll run faster. If you leave me, I'll leave first. I'll push you away, but don't ever leave me."

Borderline Personality Disorder causes many odd behaviors and thoughts, one of them is this intense fear of abandonment. Beyond the simple fear of abandonment is a person who will take drastic measures to avoid feeling like they are being abandoned, even to the point of pushing away that very person they desperately want to stay.

In this episode, I tell a few stories in my own life of how I felt abandoned in a given moment, how I reacted (sometimes drastically), and an overview of abandonment and the related feelings.